Jennifer

Read this!! THis drove me crazy mad when I read it...uggghhhh!!!

A LETTER TO YOU FROM SATAN

I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores.
You awoke without kneeling to pray.
As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night. You are so unthankful, I like that aboutyou.
I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are mine.
Remember,you and I have been going steady for years. and I still don't love you yet.
As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God.
I am only using you to get even with God.
He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.
You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you.
But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell.
That way, we'll be together twice.
This will really hurt God.
Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had.
We have been watching dirty movies, cursing people out, stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, being judgmental, back stabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.
SURELY you don't want to give all this up.
Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us.
This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you.
I'd like to say "THANKS" for letting me use you for most of your foolish life.
You are so gullible, I laugh at you.
When you are tempted to sin, you give in HA HA HA, you make me sick.
Sin is beginning to take it's toll on your life.
You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood.
So go ahead and teach some children how to sin.
All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible.
Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too.
Kids are like that.
Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now.
I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again.
If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess you sins,
and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left.
It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous.
Don't get me wrong, I still hate you.


IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.

As you can see from the subject...as of today, i am.....drumroll please....

FREEEEEEE!! hahaha yeah i'm soo hyper..but thats only because i'm so tired from studying and everything

and the exams were HARDD :( boooo.especially science...bluggghhh...but enough of that........
hahahaaaaa.....at least i'm free now =) Let the days of relaxation begin =)

how can you comfort someone when you have no clue as to how that person is feeling?? What can I say to the person to make her feel better when I don't know how it feels to feel that way? What can I say to this person that is suffering so much?? the answer to all those questions..beats me.....
any ideas? thoughts? please comment. TY =)

I was googling for info on Barlow Girls (LOL yeah Hazel got me interested in them)and I happened to run into this article about how single girls should be...
i know i'm not explaining things very clearly, but yeah: here's the link.

http://www.puritygirls.com/magazine/thewaitingroom/proverbsgirl.html

P.S. Thanks for the icon haz =)

WOW. Its now a new year..2006. THe years always seem to go by so quickly..anyway, I don't really have any new goals, its always the same every year: to draw closer to God, and to get closer to friends, family, etc... do better in school....i'm getting kinda sick of it, to tell you the truth. 2005 has been a hard year for me. I've been through a lot of hurt & disappointment. I've felt like I was losing friends, getting farther away from God, but I've also gotten to know people who helped me with my problems..I got to know someone who helped me see the good in situations that seemed hard. AYM has also took a turn this year..people have drifted, felt drained, but also it was for the better, b/c i believe that it drew us closer together. God drew us closer together through the trials in life. I'm excited to see what God has in store for us..I hope that this year will be better, but I also think that the more trials that I go through, is when I'll get closer to God. I KNOW that will happen. Although I don't want to go through all the hurt/disappointment all over again, I'm glad that I went through them, because it shaped me to be someone better. Soo, yeahh...thats about it for now. =P Have a HAPPY holiday everyone!!

Looking at other ppl's xanga pages made me want to start a thank-you list to all the people who helped me this year =) So here it goes..........this is no particular order..

1) JESUS- thank you for being there for me ALL the way, during the bad times, and the good, during the lonely times and when friends are with me....thank you for shaping me to be who I am today.<3

2) Family- I'm so grateful to you guys: Dad, Mom, Jess and Jer....my precious family...they are so amazing....i can't explain it. They've supported my dreams, my schoolwork, and helped me whenever they could...thank you :) <3

3) Hannah- I know that we have drifted apart, and I'm sorry about that, but I'm still happy that we're friends...there's not a lot of people that I feel I can relate to, and you are one of them..i don't want to lose you =) Keep strong!!

4) Maria- I've only known you for about 2 years, but it feels longer...you are definitely a ONE of a Kind...you don't care what other people think of you...you've supported me, made me laugh, mad, you name it, but its always been nice having someone like you, who can cheer me up :)

5) Rebecca- You probably won't read this, but I'm going to write this anyway...we've been friends for like...FOREVER =D Its amazing to see how long friendships can last, and, though we don't seem to have that much in common, we've stayed friends all this time...thank you for being you :) <3 OH and happy birthday!!

6) Hazel - The girl who shares the same interests as me ;) Its been nearly 3 years now since I've met you...I've seen you outgrow your shyness.......thats great!! HaHA....don't ever change....FRIENDS for life =D <3

7) Audrey- i enjoyed our talks...thank you for taking your time to get to know all the aym girls...its awesome how we have so much in common :) Its like.....WOAHH. .. =) hehehe..don't change!!

8) Jesse- its nice having a cousin who is a youth leader ;) Thanks for your prayers when I was falling...i appreciate it!! Another thing: thanks for you encouragement.. Keep up your good work as a youth leader!!! Don't get discouraged =)

9) Lesley, Trudy- thanks for helping the youth girls...also thank you for your encouragement, prayers..etc....<3

10) Other people at AYM- sorry..can't name ALL of you, but yeah..thanks for being an amazing group of individuals who are hungry for GOD...I can't imagine life without you guys, so thanks :)

There are so many more...i'm sure..but i can't think of any right now........

yayyyyy school is DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL.

Christmas Shopping?? CHECK
Homework? NONE.
Studying????????? ahhhhhh i'll do it later =P but i know that i'll have to start studying soon so i have to start studying soon...maybe next week or when i'm bored =D

Christmas Songs are RINGING in my headdd

Spirit, touch your church

Stir the hearts of man

Revive us now

With our passon once again

I want to care for others

Like Jesus cares for me

Let your love shine upon me




This song really reflects my desire to CARE FOR OTHERS LIKE JESUS DOES...
LORD let your love shine through me (=

ahhh....haven't updated in a while.. hehehe..i don't really have anything to say...??

AYM has been awesome these past few weeks =) So great to see what God has been doing in Anchor....
SOO exciting......

The Crucifixion

And the night comes again to the circle studded sky

the stars settle slowly, in loneliness we lie

till the universe explodes as a falling star is raised

the planets are paralyzed, the mountains are amazed

But they all glow brighter from the brilliance of the blaze

With the speed of insanity, then he dies





Images of innocence charge him to go on

But the decadence of history is looking for a pawn

To a nightmare of knowledge, he opens up the gate

A blinding revelation is served upon his plate

That beneath the greatest love is the hurricane of hate

And God help the critic of the dawn



The overflow of life is crushed into a liar

THe gentle soul is ripped apart and tossed into the fire

First a smile of rejection at the nearness of the night



Truth becomes a tragedy limping from the light



The heavens are horrified, they stagger from the sight



And the cross is trembling with desire.



They say they can’t believe it, “It’s a sacrilegious shame



Now who would want to hurt such a hero of the game



But you know I predicted it, I knew he had to fall



How did it happen? I hope his suffering was small



Tell me every detail, I’ve got to know it all



And do you have a picture of the pain?”





And the night comes again to the circle studded sky



The stars settle slowly in loneliness they lie



‘Til the universe explodes as a falling star is raised




The planets are paralyzed, the mountains are amazed



But they all grow brighter from the brilliance of the blaze



With the speed of insanity, then he dies.

We're leaving for the airport in around 45 minutes... :( Pray that my mom will have a safe flight to indo....

AUGGGGHHHHHHHH...

SOOO GLOOMY and SADD


PLUS it was raining today...like almost ALL day...makes it even more glooomy :(

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and I. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your LJ and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

zomgosh comment-away!

yayyyy!! i'm done my interview for careers =) i was nervous for nothing! it was pretty easy....
haha thank God....

Anyway, I"m at school and we have an extended lunch, from 11:00-12:40...
CRAZY =D
I'm so glad that its friday =) FRIDAYS rock!!!!!!!!!
yeah, i'm hyper.

Don't mind me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At school right now.......i think i'm done my Turing project..hopefully i'll get a good mark!! LOL.
Anyway, i finished my Careers Quiz, and did pretty well, so yeah, thank God. BUt, i think that i may have an english presentation that i have to do, but, i'm really nervous about it....pray for me! Its probably gonna be from 2-3 somewhere in between there.............

WORLD on FIRE is coming up tomorrow!! I still don't know how to do hair wraps! I hope i learn and do it well..i have to learn it tonight...........

Remember to pray guys!! WE wanna raise $10 000 in 5 hours!!!

WORLD ON FIRE
making a difference to a world in need

7.6 Quake in Pakistan...
... Death Toll = 42, 000+
2.5 Million people left homeless...

Our Goal is to raise $10, 000 in 5 HOURS!
all proceeds will go to World Vision


WANT TO KNOW HOW TO HELP?
Anchor Youth Ministries - AYM - will be hosting a charity event
to raise money and awareness for the victims of such
recent world disasters.


SATURDAY OCTOBER 29, 2005 @ 4:27-9:27 PM
at
Immanuel Christian Church. 1000 Petrolia Rd
(1 street EAST of Keele & Steeles)


THE EVENT:

TOURNAMENT & COMPETITION: jitz, b-ball shoot-outs, xbox, eating, ddr

FOOD BAZAAR: bbt, cotton candy, dessert, appetizers & more

SHOWS: Special Dance & Band Performances.

This week hasn't been all that busy for me, thank God!! But yeah.....I"m going to be busy next week :( hiyaa....

Immanuel Christian CHurch and Indonesian Christian Fellowship had a retreat at Singing Waters, in Orangeville.

Not a lot of people came, but it was still good!

i honestly think that although i was only ONE of TWO aym'ers that came, it was AWESOOME!!

+ THe messages were really amazing...God spoke to me so much during all 5 sessions that i went to.
+ So much laughter (hahahahaha Ayrine!! You and Backstreet Boys =D)
+ So much crying!! ( I cried during every session :( )
+ Good food...at least i think so :P

Basically, the retreat was on experiencing God's love.

RUss Irwan's messages= CRAZYY!!
Ayrine was driving us all crazy!! (by US, we mean...Jess, Rachelle, Me, Reggie, Wayne, and Marcus)
She kept on singing Backstreet Boys, and i almost ended up getting the songs stuck in my head!! =P

i think that i'm ready for my english test tomorrow......at least..i hope i am. My teacher is kinda scary. God help me.......

i got some pics from the wedding.....from julie =) thanks jul!!

http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a44/jensoedirgo/wed3.jpg
http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a44/jensoedirgo/wed1.jpg
http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a44/jensoedirgo/wed2.jpg
http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a44/jensoedirgo/weddingreception.jpg

Got home from church a couple of hours ago. Great message by Ps. Ed called "Living from the Heart." God really spoke and convicted me of not living from the heart and how i'm not really "guarding my heart" against the devil and I want to change that starting today...I just really need God's help w/ this. I hate it how I tell God i'll do something, but don't do it. That almost stopped me from saying to God "I'll guard my heart, and start living from the heart" For a long time, I"ve always made some commitment or telling him that i'll do something for him, but i end up not doing ANYTHING!!SO please!! PRAY for me guys. I need prayer.

After i got home from church, I helped my dad/sister load everything that jessica needed for Kingston. It didn't take as long as we thought...so they ended up leaving at around 2:20 pm. After that, i washed some dishes for my mom, spend some quality time w/ my BEST && LOYAL && TRUSTING friend: JESUS =D
Cheersssss =) hahahaha.... When i woke up this morning, i was kinda tired from yesterday. Because of Didik's wedding. I really enjoyed the wedding....since its my first, and Didik and Michael seemed so happy!! HEHE. The wedding was very cute, funny, and relaxing. Pastor Ed, Pastor Joe, Didik aka Nathania, Michael....they were all so funny. :P ANd the reception was even more fun!! All our seats were arranged, but I got to sit with: my sister, another Jessica, Rachelle, Ayrine, Connie, Andriana, Vanessa, Julie, Yvonne, and ME. All the youth girls in one table, with the exception of Inez, but she got to sit in the table right next to us, so its close enough, and the youth boys sat in another table. By youth boys, i mean, Cossa, Gideon, Kenny, Brian, Jonathan, Danny, Troy, Michael TJ, Christian, and Leonard. Anyway, everyone was dressed up really nice, and the presentations were pretty fun!! For the actual wedding ceremony, i wore this red spring dress with HIGH-heeeled shoes (i emphasize the word HIGH) and in the evening, at the reception, I wore this black dress that had some flowers on it w/ the same high heeled shoes. By the end of the night, i was SO tired from walking around w/ really high heels. My feet was ACHING. :( that sucked.
AnYWay, thats all that really happened yesterday. AFter the wedding, (ceremony) i went to my aunt's house to celebrate my uncle's bday, and i visited with some of my cousins/second cousins.... and some ppl from cell group.

OK OK i'm done here now. HAHA :P
ANOTHER WEEK OF SCHOOOL TO LOOK FORWARD TO..
NOT!!!!!!!!